It's still here.

I will admit it.  Some days are fine.  D isn't a big deal, we just check, give insulin and move on.  Some days are a big deal.

I am surprised that after....
every single day for 6 months....
every meal calculated....
every vial of insulin opened...
every book read...
every email to the doctor...
every phone call with the nurse...
every prick of his finger...
every time I have treated a low...
every time my heart races when he acts odd...
every shot I gave him...
every pump site changed...
every scar we create...
every glance at Dexcom...
every huge bill at the pharmacy...
every doctors appointment...
every time I have to explain why my son needs insulin and not low carb diets...

I still catch myself thinking, "This can't really be happening to us." 

But it is.  It's still here.



(There has been so much sad and awful news amoung my friends and their children in the past few weeks that I want to say, just because I feel D has changed our lives completely doesn't mean I think it compairs to what you are going through.  Like I have said before, I have my sugar baby and life is good because of that.)